​Don’t be me!

Have you ever jumped into conclusions and made a scene out of nothing? , at the time of the occurrence you fail to recognise the nothingness of the situation. In your head you develop a theory/ a scenario/ a story of what the truth is and you refuse to be told otherwise. You ask questions but never give the respondent time to respond, you respond your own questions, and you really think you have the situation figured out.
Well I hate to admit it, but that’s me, just yesterday I was faced with such a situation and I ‘took control’ of it – literally ‘took control’ of it. I was asking and answering my own questions, crying and making a fuss, I couldn’t be told that the ‘A’ i see is ‘B’. By so doing I perpetuated the situation to last longer than it should have, which I so regret now, my tears and my 12 hours gone to waste- yes I was mad and bothered for 12 hours.

The disagreement happened last night around 10pm, from there I ‘watched’ a series – or should I say the television watched me? because I really don’t remember anything from the series, I was just absorbed in my thoughts. I was crying, my heart was broken and I dozed off on the cough, as a result I had horrible dreams. When I woke up today at least I could think and reason better but I was still mad and still thought I was right. I went to the gym (well you know I bathed and had breakfast first, I didn’t just wake up and go 😃), when I came back 3 hours later I was a bit calm, ready to get real answers and ready to review the evidence. Do you remember the ‘A’ i saw yesterday?, it was actually ‘B’ for real – it is even written down how did I miss it? Indeed we see what we want to see and hear what we want to hear at times. Now how do you apologise after such an act? I am ashamed and embarrassed by my doing. I am sorry… I am sorry! The three magical words fixed the mess I had made (but remember you have to mean it).

This incident reminded me of this quote “I’m selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can’t handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don’t deserve me at my best” Marilyn Monroe

Now don’t be me… be better than me. 

Learning from my mistakes.